Page 111 - The Last Gift

She looked at the house that she was standing in,
this new house that would belong to Jacob and
his family, and, suddenly, the memory
overpowered her and she sank to the dusty floor
and sobbed. She sobbed until her whole body
was exhausted.

When there were no more tears left in her,
she knelt there in the stillness of the night and did
something she had only recently started doing.
She prayed.

“Dear God, I know I don’t have a right to
expect Jacob to love me anymore. I know he is
married to someone else. I know that it is
probably even too much to expect him to ever
think of me as his friend again. But, God, please
help him to at least not hate me. Please. I just
can’t bear it.”

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